My darkness just became a “normal” part of me.

I grew to live with it,

to essentially become it,

for nearly 10 years.⠀⠀⠀

It was my shadow.

No matter where I went,

there it was.⠀⠀⠀
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I would be laughing momentarily,

yet the shadow would eventually come creeping out,

whispering darkness right back into my ear.⠀⠀⠀

No matter what,

the shadow wouldn’t leave me,

it became all consuming.

I tried to run from it.

I screamed.

I cried,

and I cried,

and I cried.

Yet it wouldn’t leave me,

and the utter darkness became my full identity.

It was all I knew.

…then about a year ago,

something changed,

something shifted.⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀
Instead of dreading my darkness,

instead of running from it,

I accepted it.

I was determined to learn all I could about it,

yet I also became devoted to getting rid of this shadow aspect of myself.⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀
I started reading.

I started taking courses.

I started to search for passion.

I started to look for love, within.⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀
I wanted to live my radiant life,

not merely survive it.⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀
So I committed to myself,

and I’m still committing,

daily.⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀
Of course it’s not an easy thing –

to overcome your shadow,

your darkness,

your demons;

especially once you get used to having them.

After all,

they essentially grew to become my identity.

But I knew there was more to this life.

I wanted to embody my higher self,

to step into my true essence,

to live my human experience,

as best as I could,

and as magically as possible.⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀
So here I am, devoted.

Devoted to myself.

Devoted to becoming.

Devoted to living.

The shadow is now fading,

and the light is beginning to rise. ✨

>>> know and believe that this is possible for you too! 😘

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Just Me, Tina

 

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